I am continuing through the literal ups and downs (my husband constantly tells me there are too many ups) while trying to stay on bed rest and give this pregnancy the best chance I have the power to give, without neglecting all the eternal roles of most importance to me, I have also had many emotional ups and downs.
My courage comes from one steady gift; it never wavers: my faith in God and in His ability to perform the miracle of His will, notwithstanding my weakness. The power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ to strengthen and enable my faith, prayer, willingness, work, and the prayers and service of all the ministering angels around me.
No matter what the outcome of this seventh pregnancy will be, I have faith that God will work his miracles through me. If it is a miracle of more learning and the excruciating patience through a fifth miscarriage, then I accept His miracle of that experience; If it is the miracle of sacrificing a part of myself in order to participate in bringing life to this earth, then I rejoice in the miracle of learning and the excruciating patience of that experience.
I pray to have the continued faith and courage to joyfully accept each experience today, and in my future.
". . .and he knoweth [my] faith. . . "(Moroni. 8:24)
Note: I was really encouraged and inspired by this devotional Address including a story of a woman who from the beginning of her marriage, never put off and absolutely desired children but was not blessed with any for 6 years. After all her anguish and tears, they eventually were able to adopt one at a time two baby girls and two baby boys. Then another miracle occurred: she learned that she was expecting triplets and suddenly was the mother of 7 children all under the age of 8. She had been healed and blessed after her suffering and endurance. (paraphrased).
Search for: "The Love of the Savior. Timothy B. Smith. BYU Devotional | February
12, 2008 "
( I was having trouble getting the BYU site to work today in order to link it for you here)