Wednesday, January 31, 2018
Who was I before I was married and turned myself over to doing my best to love and support my husband even though I didn't feel supported by him very often? Who was I before turning myself over to taking care of my children--usually before myself? Who was I then? What were my dreams and my goals? More Importantly--am I still me? Who am I now?
Whoever else I am, I know that I am still a daughter of God and it is still my greatest desire to be like my Savior and follow God's will for me. Even though my marriage is not going how I planned, despite all the hard work on both of our parts, I know I did the right thing to get married to him. I also know that it is now the right thing to be separated. It is still so hard to accept that divorce will probably be soon in my future. I really believed things would work out between us in the end. But being safe and being me is more important even than a forever family staying together forever. It is so strange to type those words but it is true.
I thought about waiting to share this sad truth on this blog, but I can't help sharing because I believe strongly that there are more out there who might be in some type of abusive relationship--or might have a husband who is struggling with pornography or sexual addiction. I know I am not the only one to finally realize that I have to leave and take care of myself. I don't want anyone else to feel alone if I can help them in any way.
I hope each of you are able to feel God's love in your life today no matter what you are experiencing. I pray for you to never be alone. I know I have been blessed in so many ways and through so many angels, especially my family, my visiting teachers, my bishop and my best friends.
Thursday, August 3, 2017
I was pretty stressed about the mess in the play room upstairs and we were working together to clean some of it up. I found my favorite snuggly pillow I had been missing and you made a really cute comment;
"Messy rooms often reveal things you've been looking for for a long time"
It was such a wise thing to say and it helped me to smile and feel much happier. Thanks for serving me today with your cute personality.