My courage comes from one steady gift; it never wavers: my faith in God and in His ability to perform the miracle of His will, notwithstanding my weakness. The power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ to strengthen and enable my faith, prayer, willingness, work, and the prayers and service of all the ministering angels around me.
No matter what the outcome of this seventh pregnancy will be, I have faith that God will work his miracles through me. If it is a miracle of more learning and the excruciating patience through a fifth miscarriage, then I accept His miracle of that experience; If it is the miracle of sacrificing a part of myself in order to participate in bringing life to this earth, then I rejoice in the miracle of learning and the excruciating patience of that experience.
I pray to have the continued faith and courage to joyfully accept each experience today, and in my future.
". . .and he knoweth [my] faith. . . "(Moroni. 8:24)
Be inspired,
Note: I was really encouraged and inspired by this devotional Address including a story of a woman who from the beginning of her marriage, never put off and absolutely desired children but was not blessed with any for 6 years. After all her anguish and tears, they eventually were able to adopt one at a time two baby girls and two baby boys. Then another miracle occurred: she learned that she was expecting triplets and suddenly was the mother of 7 children all under the age of 8. She had been healed and blessed after her suffering and endurance. (paraphrased).
Search for: "The Love of the Savior. Timothy B. Smith. BYU Devotional | February 12, 2008 "
( I was having trouble getting the BYU site to work today in order to link it for you here)
Today marks 2 weeks on bed rest. That means I passed the first stage where the earliest of my four miscarriages occurred. My autoimmune disease fighting the pregnancy hasn't won this first battle! Each time I cramp up or my back aches more intensely, I have to battle my fear and once again choose faith. I can't let that faith waver or I will lose a much more important battle than the battle for this pregnancy. I must always choose faith and hope. I must be a courageous soldier
ReplyDelete"We know that the Lord has laid high responsibilites upon us, and there is not a wish or desire that the Lord has implanted in our hearts in righteousness but will be realized, and the greatest good we can do to ourselves and each other is to refine and cultivate ourselves in everything that is good and ennobling to qualify us for those responsibilities. " (Eliza. R. Snow, Daughters. In my Kingdom, p. 42)
ReplyDelete"Know ye not that ye are in the hands of God? Know ye not that he hath all power. . . humble. yourselves before him. . ." (Moroni 5:23-24)
It is a very fierce battle for me today. I chose not to waver, not to doubt or fear, always to hope and trust that I am in God's hands. The pain I feel threatens those resolves. That is my battle at this moment. Obviously the burden of this challenging war leaves little time for rest. I must in all humility listen to my heart which can be strengthened by the Spirit --the voice of God. His voice is the only one which will comfort, lead, and guide me through the safest areas of the battlefield to victory and safety. His is the only healing power to take away my wounds. It is only my human genes that fear defeat. I am a daughter of God and victory is always the end of the road if I endure with faith and follow Him.
ReplyDeletePlease never give up in your battles. Some battles may feel like failures ; but with God, the war will always be won..
Be inspired,
Janelle Joy